I finally got Matt to send me some pictures. I've only waited well like FOREVER! Although I know my husband hates getting his picture taken so any I get mean alot more. So there is my sweet husband (I love you sweetiexoxoxo)
I think I have realized the hardest part of him being deployed. I thought it was missing him so much or taking care of the kids alone or even the constant worrying. No the last few days I found what it is (at least for me). It's not being able to hug him & make things better. The past week or so he has been so down. Heat,work, people,everythings just getting to him. I hate not being able to give him a huge hug , kiss & tell him it will be ok. You have no idea how close Matt & I are. We finish each others sentences. We always know exactly what the other is thinking or even how each other are feeling. If you were every around us for more than a few minutes you'd probably either puke or just slap us. We are one of those couples that I HATE HATE seeing right now. The one's saying "I love you honey" for no reason & kisses here & there all the time. You should see our conversation on messanger it's usually filled with I love you,I miss you,I wish you were here,I wish I could be there. On the outside looking in it's pretty sickening but I don't care I love it!! We always know just what to do to cheer each other up even st the worst of times. I only wish I could do that for him now. I can send 100 care packages with his favorite PB cookies,write the sweetest love letters,talk to him & tell him it will be ok but I think I'm already doing the one thing he really truly needs. Thats love him. I may not be able to put into beautiful words just how much I care about my husband or write a beautiful song that would just knock him off his feet but love him with all my heart.....Well,that I can do!