I have a story I have to share tonight.......The kids were bugging me ALL day to listen to a cd the Matt left here. It has the Sponge Bob theme song on it...lol! I had put it off all day for fear I would break down in front of them. It has alot of his favorite songs on it & thats something I couldn't handle today. Anyway, they waited all day with me telling them in a minute 100 times until the tantrums started.So I was getting ready to give Shannon a bath & decided that while I was doing that I would play it. That way my mind would be elsewhere. I was washing her hair as she splashe like crazy getting the whole floor soaked (she loves that!) when Matts favorite song came on (Rascal Flatts- So Close) The kids turned it up because of course if daddy likes it well they do to. When all the sudden Shannon stops everything & looks up at me with those big blue eyes & chubby cheeks & says DA DA!!!!!! I smiled & said "yes thats da da's song right". She looked up at me again & this time screams DA DA!!!!! Well I lost it. It was sooo cute but it killed me. To know that she remembered him meant the world to me. See I often think that we are lucky that she is so little that she doesn't realize things but I forget just how much this little girl is missing out on. Matt loves these kids more than anything. He is such a GREAT dad. She doesn't know him like the other two do. He & she will miss out on so much together & it kills me. The 2 weeks he was here I would watch (secretly) as he played with her & I saw the way she looked at him. Right in his eyes. So closely as if she was trying to keep his face in her mind forever. She would rub his face & just sing. It was beautiful. I know that they will not have alot of memories of her as a baby but those little things mean alot. Eventually he WILL be home & she will see just how much her daddy adores her. Until then she has me to tell her daily that he is the best daddy there is & he may not be able to be with her right now but he is away doing a job that must be done.......changing the world.
Matt, I love you so much & your 3 rascals love & think the WORLD of you. Keep that with you ALWAYS!
Monday, May 08, 2006
Posted by Courtney at 8:51 PM