Well I have done pretty good lately. I haven't cried as much as I used to but tonight I lost it. It's silly little things you would never even think about before but now can really make you want to go back to bed & never wake up. I talked to Matt online tonight for longer than usual which was great but also made me miss him more. Then I got the kids to bed & I started puuting away some of mine & Matt's clothes. I found a basket under a million boxes & it had a tshirt of Matt's. I picked it up & for some reason I smelled it. Well, it smelled just like him. Not cologne. Not soap. Just him. I miss him so much. I don't have that much longer to go but God this is so hard.