I have quickly learned that through deployments you really see who cares & who doesn't. Thank goodness I have great blogger friends who care & give me advice. Without you I would go crazy. Since Matt has left it's one problem after the other. Mainly with family you know family who should be there for you through it all. I find myself pouring my heart out time after time to these people who should care about Matt & I (especially Matt right now) but I get nothing in return except bragging & complaing about their own petty problems. I think what hurts the most is before Matt left he talked to everyone & asked to look out for us & be there. Everyone vowed to do this but the day he left it immediately changed. I mean a good example is the day he left I came home still pregnant & with two crying confused kids all alone & with not one phone call. Maybe I am asking to much but time after time I find myself crying over this & I cry enough to let this bother me to. Matt tells me to just stop trying & that all we need is each other. Which is so true. If he is happy than thats what matters to me & same way with him. Well I am not happy with these people so what now do I shut them out for now to help my emotions or keep trying because honestly I think I am tried out. It's sad when people whom you have never actually met know about myself & my kids & also seem to care more than family. But thank you for that. I need that right now & you all know that. Therefore you continue to keep in touch & help me through the most difficult time in my life.
~ Court ~